Friday, May 22, 2009

Human Wreckage

I am not perfect nor even close. I have a great number of issues that I am working very hard to remedy here in my own private Walden. I am depressed, I am angry, I am lost in so very many ways and I am trying to find my way to the break waters.(I should note...most of the day I am pretty happy in my garden or in the feilds with the critters or whatever....life no matter what is never aone huge black cloud) I have screamed and broken things (Including myself) but I have never raised my hand in violence to another. I am and always have been a pacifist. I do not hit people.
I remember the night my brother started a fight with the neighbor and I walked down and stood between them with my hands in my pockets while I was struck time and time again, yet I never raised my fist. I suppose this makes me weak in some way but it is who I am. I bark loudly but the only person I have ever hurt physically has been myself.
Knowing what I know now I think MAYBE I should have shown someone one what it is like to hit some one who can and WILL hit them back. I suppose only time and death will ever tell what there is to say about that.
I HATE BULLIES

I am frightened. I am frightened in a way I never have been before. I have ranted and raved over issues that made me angry before but I can’t really ever say I have been scared before ….not really. All other issues were just trite babblings on my part relating ultimately to myself. But theses days of Mars rising I am scared not for me but for my daughter. I am near powerless to do anything but watch the state had my little girl back over to a women who has shown nothing but a lust for violence in the past back over to her rather than to me and my Father. I suppose they think a few weeks of anger management courses will undo a lifetime of human wreckage.

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If it weren’t so fucking irritating, I’d laugh over the video called "Our Created Solar System" presented at a website called Creation Astronomy. As you might expect, it’s purporting to have evidence that the Universe isn’t 13.7 billion years old, but is instead some integrally-multiple number of begats old. (Ie 6,000 years or so)
Now with 100% fewer facts!!!
I watched the Jupiter video I was able to obtain from the local Library until all I could hear was a loud buzzing sound punctuated by the word "evolution". Last thing I recall before I passed out in a fit of stupid was; evolution was the change in allele frequency over time… Jupiter allele? Jupiter has chromosomes? Are creationists that confused?
Well, certainly many are, but why ascribe to ignorance what can be ascribed to misdirection? The creator of the video obviously uses the word evolution over and over again because it’s a buzzword likely to sway people predisposed against science to agree with the bizarre version of reality he espouses, even though he must know that evolution has nothing to do with astronomy.
Hmmm. Bear false witness much?
The nonsense pouring forth from those videos would carve the Grand Canyon in just days if it were water.
It would be interesting to debunk the garbage presented point by point– in the sense that it would be interesting to slowly push a red-hot knitting needle into my ear — but there’s no need. Debunking that video is like trying to cure chicken pox one scab at a time. It’s all "god of the gaps" nonsense, "science can’t explain this or that", with them always and forever forgetting the one word that changes everything:
"Yet".
Which leads me to my next seriously skewed issue….

Posted by Saint Tuesday at 8:18 AM | | Comments

Anger

It's probably about time for me to end this blog and grow up....long time coming.

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SOME THOUGHTS

With all of this Shannon abusing the kids thoughts going on round my head I have been hard pressed to write anything that is not either angry or below Me however....
A few random thoughts from my Journal for your review:

“I hate it when a day has two Four O’Clocks”
“And Because I could…I didn’t.”
“What I am feeling is ‘premature Enlightenment’.”
“On Perversion (IE: life with you know who);
It’s like horse radish or hot sauce. It’s good on a beef sandwich, you have a bit. But then on day a drop isn’t enough, it just doesn’t cut the mustard anymore. So you have three or four and that does you for a while. However not even a whole spoonful really does the trick so you add more and so it continues until one day you realize all you have is sauce and all the beef fell out only you never realized…and you don’t have anything worth eating anymore. Poor dumb slob.”
“Those who speak of their credentials seldom actually have them.”
“It’s too early in the morning to be this early in the morning”
“You get a wonderful view from the point of no return.”
“We got along like a bag of cats”
“She was smelly in a nice sort of way unfortunately she was also a furious cup of cat. “

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